October 20th, 2009

The day i met Tokio Hotel

With no doubt once or ever, The best day of my life.

So let me start!
The day before was really horrible. It was nothing but fighting the whole day. We almost gave up on going all together about three times. On Monday we rushed to the mall and bought our copies of humanoid. We were broke so we disdainfully decided that my poor sister Nomey [aka Jess] couldn't go and i was to go with Ashely [aka Paparazzi]. The panic attack I threw in Hot Topic was epic. My friend said I would have to go alone cause she wouldn't go without my sister. But Nomey ended up sacrificing herself so I would get to meet them. NO ONE knows how much I really honestly and truly owe her. I Love her. Reading twitter somone wrote there were already people waiting outside for like 3 days already. I panicked and thought i wasn't going to get to see them. That never kept me from trying though. We had been trying to get a ride the past three nights to get there at 3 in the morning so we would get to see them. EVERYONE we asked failed us. Finally we decided to catch the bus around five in the morning to get to New York.

We got up at 3 and did our make up and dressed and left. The bus ride was hilarious because we were so tired and we laughed at everything that came our way. We only got one hour of sleep. We got to NY and had to walk aaaaalll the way down broadway 2499 to adress 622. We had barely any money for a cab so walking was the only option. We ended up taking a cab less than half way there. We sacrificed our lunch money. We got to the line around 7 or so. Amazingly it wasn't that long. I was so relieved. I found Lexy, a very good friend I made on the line to see Cinema Bizarre, and i gave her her present: a Georg doll i had made just for her a long while back when i learned she loved him. I was so happy to see she loved it! i really hoped she would.

one quick thing: I HOPE YOU GET BETTER CRYSTAL!!
I'm so sorry you were sick. :{

We encountered a problem though. I learned from Lexy that we needed to buy Humanoid at the Best Buy in order to get in to see them. Thats when my dreams were finally crushed. Only for about 2 seconds though. Thanks to the Amazing Lexy we had enough money to get into the signing.

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT MEANT TO ME LEXY I LOOOOOOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

So we waited about 3 hours until 9 to get our passes to be allowed in. We got our passes and wristbands.
The song that played while we were getting them:

"The Pain of Love"

No one will ever understand what that song means to me and Paparazzi!

After that we went into a McDonalds and decided to rest. [Sorry we couldn't meet up with you Lex. There wasn't enough money to take a cab and we were too tired to walk. I would've really liked to hang out though] Ash bought a parfait cause thats the only thing we could afford. I sat there and played with the Bill doll that i made. That doll was a show stopper. Everyone asked where i got it and how much it cost. Everyone's jaw dropped when they found out i made it. So we sat there for a little while and the most astonishing thing happened. There was a lady who worked there sitting next to us. She ended up giving us free monopaly pieces to get free items from the menu. That was one of the luckiest things that ever happened to me.

After loitering at Mickey's for about 2 hours in a half, we went back to stand in line for the signing. We made a couple of friends in line. They really helped pass the time. We waited about 8 hours to get in. We were cold, hungry, our bodies ached and we needed to pee. they made us stand for like about 2 hours. Finally we went in

I was too tired to feel excited. My mood changed when we got to the stairs to go down to see them. I went down the first landing and saw them. My heart is racing as i'm writing this. They were amazing. I took a couple of pictures of them just so I know that i saw them. We went down the stairs and i hugged ashley as we neared them. The exact words out of my mouth were:

"Oh my God Ashely, They're real."

There was a huge gap between the people in front of us and the people behind us. We had their full attention on us. Ashley went first. It was so cute she went "Hi" to Bill. He smiled brightly and said "hello" in the sweetest voice ever. When i saw his smile I knew I had to make him smile for my own means. I wanted one smile to be dedicated to me.

The funniest thing: I was barely nervous to see him. The whole day I wondered what I would do in front of him. When I finally was in front of him, it was the most natural feeling in the world. There was no problem talking to him at all. I stood my doll up on the table and said: "I made you." The look he gave me was priceless. He scrunched up his eyebrows and looked up. When he saw what i was talking about the hugest smile spread across his face.

"Oh wow, thats Awesome!"

The exact words to come out of his mouth. That was just amazing to me. I wish those 3 seconds could've lasted an eternity. I acheived in getting my smile when i thought i would fail. Tom looked at the doll before Bill actually did. "Thats really cool" were his words. He had a smirk on his face but when i said "Thank you" his smirk turned into a full blown smile. I barely got the "thank you" out to bill though. Ashley told me i sounded like a 5 year old! The other two, Georg and Gustav didn't pay mind to me. I said thank you to both and i was out. One thing I will say though: I never was a fan of Georg, actually to be honest, I always thought he was ugly! But when i saw him in person....MY GAWD!!! He's gorgeous!!!!!

Those 10 to 15 seconds were the best of my life. All that pain and anguish and torture was worth it. Today my body hurts but that pain i cherish with the memories of what happened yesterday. One thing i learned through this experiance: It is useless on waiting for other people to make your dreams come true unless you do somthing about it.

They told me he was Beautiful
I beleived them
But now i KNOW

If i was in love with Bill before, now i ADORE him with my whole life <3
I never thought i was going to meet him and i did.
Its one thing to see him in pictures and oggle over him, but its another thing to see him in person, alive and moving and breathing, and absolutly collapse on the inside of how Gorgeous he really is. His smile will forever be burned into my mind.